Okay, so today’s weigh-in was a big shock. I’m back at 78.6kg. It doesn’t really surprise me after the past few weeks but it was still terrible to see the number on the scales. Well, this hopefully wakes me up. I just checked my little book and saw that my last entry is from three weeks ago and I was at 76.1kg back then. I have totally messed things up during these three weeks. 

What happened? That’s simple: I went back to my old, bad habits. It all started right after Lent when I was “allowed” to eat chocolate and chips and all that stuff again. I didn’t realize at first but I ate more and more and sure enough, I’d soon catch myself snacking every night. A part of me knew this was bad but I ignored the voice in my head. And as if this wasn’t bad enough I stopped working out. There always seemed to be a lame excuse like having a driving lesson in the morning. I’ve just been a lazy, greedy pig lately. 

But that’s going to change right now! I’ll pack away all the unhealthy snacks and stop the mindless munching every night. I won’t eat out of boredom any longer and neither will I eat huge amounts only because my greedy mouth wants more of that tasty stuff while my stomach is totally satisfied. I’ll have healthy meals and make sure I get all the nutrients my body needs. I’ll make sure to get some kind of exercise at least 4 times a week. I’ll be more active and get off my lazy ass. Decrease the time I spend with my laptop. But I will post on here more often. I’m planning to post more food pics again because knowing that I’ll upload it motivates me to make it extra good and healthy. 

Let’s get this big, lazy ass back on track!

Hey guys! 

I had a really great time in Berlin. We saw a lot of the town and walked soooo much. I’m serious when I say I need new shoes now. We’ve seen all the obligatory buildings and tourist stuff and then a lot of things only Berliner know. Anja (the wife of Lukas’ brother) took us everywhere and made sure we didn’t miss anything. I even know how much you have to pay for a prostitue! 

The wedding of Anja and Damian was really nice. I love weddings. Especially when the new family is nice and they definitely were :) We all lived in the same hotel and got along very well. We laughed a lot and did a lot of things together.

The downside of our trip to Berlin was the food (which is not Berlin’s fault). I’ve been longing for my own kitchen so badly after not eating healthy in days. In fact, I didn’t even get to eat what I wanted but what I was ‘forced’ to eat. Everyone in Lukas’ family is a great eater and they always feel like everybody has to eat like them. We were dragged to restaurants every night, ending up having some huge and heavy meals. Try and order just a salad and sure enough Lukas’ mum would moan at me or simply order a Wiener Schnitzel with fries for me. It was impossible to say no, especially when I didn’t want to spoil it for them. They’re so disappointed when you don’t seem to appreciate what they like. I love them but this is a horrible trait.

I feel like I gained 10 pounds in one week and my belly looks like it, too. I feel like a stuffed turkey today. My system isn’t used to those heavy and fatty foods and the huge portions, so it refused working properly. You guys can’t imagine how very much I’m looking forward to a salad and whole meal food! Ah, I’ll probably spend hours on grocery shopping today, enjoying every second of it. 

But now: time for a good old coffee (the stuff at the hotel was undrinkable, blegh!), a whole grain bun and an apple!

I’m totally shaky and nervous now. Why? I don’t even know. My mind says everything will be fine, this is going to be fun and I’ll do okay. However, my body goes insane, feeling extremely sick. I just checked my watch and saw I have to leave in about 10 minutes time. This gave me like a big punch in the stomach.

Seriously, body, stop doing that shit. I’m not scared, so stop acting like the end is near. 

I just had two more slices of whole wheat toast, this time with hard boiled egg, hoping that would calm my crazy stomach. Nope, didn’t help. At least I’m not lacking any energy.

First driving lesson tomorrow at 11:15

I won’t manage to go to the gym before cause I’ll be indulging any info I can find to be as prepared as I can be. Aaah I’m excited!